Regis Cebu Leadership || Leader Melissa Abarrientos || FIP

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Dear prof.

Pit Senyor! Sorry for the late submission of my FIP. 

Introduction:

Many of us can become a manager but not everyone can truly lead. Leadership is more than just managing people and inspiring people towards a common goal. Leadership requires authenticity of character and morale  that comes from within in order to lead them to reach a common goal towards a better society.

 Most of us have an unsatiable desire to attain a dream. It gives us self-fulfillment. There's always that feeling, that passion and that determination that drives us to our goals. For some it can be a selfish one and for some it can be a selfless one. As often said a leader is a leader if he has followers. But is that enough? I suppose not, A leader must have the the essential qualities to inspire other people to the same goal. Most famous leaders I have read and known share the qualities of unwavering confidence, charisma, flexibility, people skills, honesty, determination, knowledge and power. And wher do their power come from? Some through their position and title but the the authentic leader's power comes from within and this is the kind of leadership that we should aim for. It is the only kind of leadership that will last.

Where I Am Now?

I have learned from our debate and the article by George, Sims and et.al. that leaders are not necessarily born with any particular qualities to lead.  Rather, leaders internally frame their leadership qualities based on their life stories and learn from their experiences and their environment. They reflect, internalize and learn and grow as a leader. Anyone can become a leader and authentic leadership can be learned through a continued self-awareness and expoloration; and understanding and acceptance of oneself's strengths and weakness.

The activity Bad boss activity was an eye opener of the daily practices that had become normal in my perception as it is self – evident.  Corrupt practices had become necessary in business relationships. With the activity I came to realize that character, moral values are more important than selfish goals. In my thoughts I often criticize the politics in the country without even thinking that I too had participated in dirty politics to achieve some of my business goals. This certainly ails the world. And I came to realize that if I want change that change, change must first - start from me and within.  We need to look at and re-evaluate our values in making decisions if we want to have a better nation. 

In my movie Synopsis, I have also chosen the movie from Rurouni kenshin where the movie was all about not just leading organizational change but rather that was breaking and putting an end to the nation's corroupt and evil practices. Aside from learning the call to leadership stages, I further understood the effect and impact of values and morales of a leader  in building a great nation or leading an organization.

Reflection paper  1 made me look back my past experiences and understand further the current driving motivation of my actions and decisions. I realized that a significant even in my life changed me the person I was since I've gone through pain, despair and anger in my life. I went about with denial that I had always been okay and fine. I struggled for power and position drives my leadership style. I forgot that was something more than power and position. All the while, I have learned that I have the chance to re-build my character  and re-define my purpose wholistically  to drive change as a leader not only in the company I am managing but also to myself, my family, my friends, my studies and significant other.

I have realized that a real leader's power comes from within. By being fully aware of  one's self and purpose of existence, you a get a better vision on how to respond to challenges and problems and on how to align goals with the people you are managing.

Reflection paper 2 made me recall a lot about my college days on how fulfilling it was to serve the community and selflessness. It helped me understand what shaped me as a person I am now. From my family, my friends, my college experiences, the people around me before and the environment I am currently in now. Reflecting on the internal and external factors that influences my daily life posed a challenge for me to visualize on how am I going to align myself as a leader with my subordinates in order for us  to reach a common goal. I had to reflect further on how am I as a leader now and how am I going to influence change to them so that they can align themselves and be with me to achieve our goals.

The enneagram was an eye opener and my ticket to answer my issue on how I can lead my people to get in line with me. Understanding myself's character and style allowed me to bend a little.

My Enneagram result told me I was a Challenger that states:

"People of this personality type are essentially unwilling to be controlled, either by others or by their circumstances; they fully intend to be masters of their fate. Eights are strong willed, decisive, practical, tough minded and energetic. They also tend to be domineering; their unwillingness to be controlled by others frequently manifests in the need to control others instead."

When healthy, this tendency is kept under check, but the tendency is always there, nevertheless, and can assume a central role in the Eight's interpersonal relationships.

Eights generally have powerful instincts and strong physical appetites which they indulge without feelings of shame or guilt. They want a lot out of life and feel fully prepared to go out and get it. They need to be financially independent and often have a hard time working for anyone. This sometimes necessitates that the Eight opt out of the system entirely, assuming something of an outlaw mentality. Most Eights however, find a way to be financially independent while making their peace with society, but they always retain an uneasy association with any hierarchical relationship that sees the Eight in any position other than the top position.

Eights have a hard time lowering their defenses in intimate relationships. Intimacy involves emotional vulnerability and such vulnerability is one of the Eight's deepest fears. Betrayal of any sort is absolutely intolerable and can provoke a powerful response on the part of the violated Eight. Intimate relationships are frequently the arena in which an Eight's control issues are most obviously played out and questions of trust assume a pivotal position. Eights often have a sentimental side that they don't even show to their intimates, such is their fear of vulnerability. But, while trust does not come easily to an Eight, when an Eight does take someone into the inner sanctum, they find a steadfast ally and stalwart friend. The Eight's powerful protective instincts are called into play when it comes to the defense of family and friends, and Eights are frequently generous to a fault in providing for those under their care.

Eights are prone to anger. When severely provoked, or when the personality is unbalanced, bouts of anger can turn into rages. Unhealthy Eights are frankly agressive and when pushed, can resort to violence. Such Eights enjoy intimidating others whom they see as "weak" and feel little compunction about walking over anyone who stands in their way. They can be crude, brutal and dangerous.

Self-denial will not help me get through with the challenge I am facing. It is quite evident from my day to day interaction that I am quite domineering and by personality it is true that I do not want to be controlled. I am strong willed and quite tough (otherwise I won't survive a job full of men bigger and physically stronger than me.)  I was the type of "I" person. So by learning from my enneagram on how I respond to challenges and situation, I learned that a team is better than one. I learned to use us and we. I learned how to become a team leader. This was how I have aligned my perpective and goal to my team. And this is how it will be. I have also encouraged them now to become a team after our team building which I copied from our leadership activity.

Summary of Assignments

Dear Prof,

I have posted below the summary of the assignments. I will individually forward them to you.

Name	Date Submitted to Prof. Jorge	Assignment
Leader Izumi G. Yamashita	Sun, Jan 17, 2016 at 11:13 PM	FIP
Melissa B Abarrientos	Sun, Jan 17, 2016 at ​5​:03 PM	FIP
Leader Juvelon Abante	01/17/2016 09:47 PM	FIP
Genevieve R. Ramos	January 17, 2016 at 11:21:48 PM	FIP
Genevieve R. Ramos	January 17, 2016 11:37 PM	Genogram
Melchor Daclan
Bryan

Regards,

Gem Reuyan

Thanks for the follow up and hand holding to get our Leaders submit.  The deadline was January 16 which I extended until 4 pm yesterday.

Cebu Regis Leadership: Leader Izumi G. Yamashita Final Integrating Paper

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Subject: Cebu Regis Leadership: Leader Izumi G. Yamashita Final Integrating Paper
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Cebu Regis Leadership

Leader Izumi G. Yamashita

Final Integrating Paper

As you may already know, this class is my second to the last class before I finally receive my MBA degree. Truth be told, I didn't see what there was to teach on Leadership or how it could be taught for that matter. Now, I cannot be thankful enough for having been privileged to have this subject and actually unexpectedly rediscover myself, or better yet, fully understand my personality, my being, or just my whole existence.

Prior to taking this class, I was really convinced that I needed to go through some psychotherapy sessions in order to come to terms with my own long repressed personal issues and monsters, which I believed were caused by a lot of what transpired in my family growing up. It is because of these issues that my personal "anchor" and self-confidence often disappear causing me to get thrown over whenever huge waves come my way.  <are you ready to pay what you should have paid the NP therapist ?)

What this class had blessed me with is the ability to dig, reflect, understand, and reframe my personal experiences in such a way that I could use them to my advantage and emerge strong from whatever circumstance or struggle I may encounter moving forward. I have ultimately discovered a new sense of appreciation for the people and events that influenced and turned me into who and what I am now. Leadership ultimately gave me a new perspective in life. <solved! no more repressed feelings and at times depression>

I. WHERE AM I NOW?

Let's begin with the basics. My name is Izumi Galdo Yamashita. I am 26 years old and I am an Investment Banker. I am also a graduating MBA student who started my whole post-graduate studies strong and aims to finish even stronger hoping to achieve the much-coveted honors distinction.

MY PERSONALITY: ENNEAGRAM ANALYSIS

I am an Achiever – a Type 3 person. I am adaptable, excelling, driven, and image-conscious.

As I Type 3 person, I need to be validated in order to feel worthy. I pursue success and want to be admired. I am hardworking, highly driven and ambitious, extremely competitive, and highly focused in the pursuit of my goals. I always find areas in which I can excel in order to find external approbation or to attain validation.

Socially, I am competent, extroverted, and some would say, charismatic. I know how to present myself, am self-confident, practical, and driven. I have a lot of energy and often embody a kind of zest for life that others find contagious. I am also a good networker. But, while I tend to succeed in whatever realm I focus my energies on, I am indeed afraid of becoming a "loser".

I find intimacy and attachment difficult. My need to be validated for my image hides a deep sense of shame about who I really am, a shame I unconsciously fear will be unmasked if another gets too close. I am generous and likable, but really difficult to know. When unhealthy, my narcissism takes an ugly turn and I tend to become cold blooded and ruthless in the pursuit of my goals. (Eclectic Energies)

Aside from being an Achiever, I am also a Type 2 person, a Helper.

I am generous, demonstrative, people-pleasing, and possessive, but for the most part, I am this way because I need to be needed.

As a Type 2 person, I essentially feel that I am worthy insofar as I am helpful to others. Love is my highest ideal and selflessness is my duty. Giving to others is my reason for being which is why I tend to be involved and socially aware.

As a Helper, I am a warm and emotional person who cares a great deal about my personal relationships, devote an enormous energy to them, and expect to be appreciated for my efforts. Helping others makes me feel good about myself, being needed makes me feel important, and being selfless makes me feel virtuous.  I am thoroughly convinced of my selflessness, and it is true that I am frequently genuinely helpful and concerned about others. It is equally true though that I require appreciation; that I need to be needed.

Helping others often meet my needs that I often forget to take care of my own. This often leads to physical burnout, emotional exhaustion, and emotional volatility. I need to learn that I can only be of true service to other if I am healthy, balanced, and centered in myself.

As a Helper, I am proud and have a strong sense of my own worth.

Lastly, I am an Individualist – a Type 4 person. I am expressive, dramatic, self-absorbed, and temperamental. I am an identity seeker who feels unique and different.

I build my identity around my perception of myself as being somehow unique or different, thus making me self-conscious. I see my difference from others as being both a gift and a curse – a gift, because it sets me apart from those I perceive as being somehow "common", and a curse, as it often seems to separate me from the simpler forms of happiness that others so readily seem to enjoy.

I often manage to feel superior to others while also secretly harboring some degree of longing and envy. A feeling of being a true member of the "true aristocracy" alternates with deeps feelings of shame, and fears of somehow being deeply flawed or defective.

As a Type 4 person, I am emotionally complex and highly sensitive. I long to be understood and appreciated for my authentic self, but easily feel misunderstood and unappreciated. I have a tendency to withdraw in the face of a world that seems harsh or crude. I am also often somewhat moody or temperamental.

I am emotionally centered and spend much of my time immersed in my internal mental landscapes, where I feel free to cultivate and analyze my feelings. I am somewhat melancholic by disposition, and under stress tend to lapse into depression. I also tend to be self-absorbed, even under the best of circumstances, but when unbalanced, easily give way to self-indulgence, which I perceive as being fully justified as a way to compensate for the general lack of pleasure I experience in my life.

Why am I the way I am?

J. CAMPBELL, MY LIFE STORY, AND THE FACTORS THAT SHAPED ME (REFLECTION PAPER #2)

I believe the best way to begin is to retell my life story incorporating the factors that shaped me, my defining moments, my genogram, and eventually, to finding my passion being the last part of my hero story.

(J. CAMPBELL 1) THE ORDINARY WORLD:  The hero, uneasy, uncomfortable or unaware, is introduced sympathetically so the audience can identify with the situation or dilemma.  The hero is shown against a background of environment, heredity, and personal history.  Some kind of polarity in the hero's life is pulling in different directions and causing stress.

I was born in a broken family. My father left us when I was one. My mother left me when I was only four only to be taken care of by my grandparents.

I was a lolo's girl but by grandpa died just when I was six. My grandmother took charge of taking care of me and my aunt – two kids of the same age. Having to experience living with 100 pesos a day, sometimes even less up to the time we graduated college, our life was nowhere near comfortable. This is probably why my grandmother often resorted to verbal or physical abuse out of the stress having to care for us and survive us.

Because of my grandmother's abusiveness, I felt resentment towards her. I also resented my mom because I felt it was her fault that I am experiencing what I was experiencing.

(J. CAMPBELL 2) THE CALL TO ADVENTURE:  Something shakes up the situation, either from external pressures or from something rising up from deep within, so the hero must face the beginnings of change. 

As I was growing, my grandmother's abusive behavior only got worse; perhaps because my rebellious behavior was starting to show too.

When I entered high school, I discovered a new world – one that's far from my primary school; one that's not sheltered. I met a lot of new friends. Because of my situation at home, I often found comfort in the company of friends, outside of my home. I'd leave the house early, attend school from 8am to 3pm then off to somewhere with my friends, then get home at around 10 or 11PM. My grandmother hated this. She threw baseless accusations at me and became even more verbally and physically abusive than ever. I wasn't really doing anything to harm myself. I just couldn't stand being at home. That's it.

When my grandmother couldn't get me to follow what she wants, she started talking around. Next thing I know, I was the favorite topic of my relatives. There's the "walang mararating yang batang yan", "hindi yan makakatapos ng pag-aaral", and the worst, "patapon palibhasa iniwanan ng magulang".

This struck a particular chord, which made me so furious bad enough that I so badly wanted to prove them wrong. From then on, all I ever wanted, everything I undertook was meant to see the day I'd be making them eat every cruel word they've ever said about me.  

(J. CAMPBELL 3) REFUSAL OF THE CALL:  The hero feels the fear of the unknown and tries to turn away from the adventure, however briefly.  Alternately, another character may express the uncertainty and danger ahead.

I wanted to prove them wrong but I also didn't want them to think I was giving in and was doing what wanted me to do. I told myself that since it's what they think of me, might as well prove them right and give them the worst days of their lives.

So I went on with my old ways, even worse. I spent a lot more time with friends. I barely went to class and sometimes I don't even go home. I learned how to smoke, drink, and even do drugs. Eventually, my world revolved around my friends and my relationship.

REFLECTION PAPER NO.1: DEFINING MOMENTS

From the point of my life's major ordeal, everything has just been my defining moment; from losing all my friends who I considered as my family, to losing my job, to seemingly having proven for a moment that my relatives were right that I am worth no good or good for nothing, to meeting new people who showed me a totally different world, a totally different way of being; to showing me that there's so much more to me and everything around me that I fail to realize, up to this day after going through the entire Leadership course, everything just turned me into what and who I am now. Everything else that happened in my past was just preparatory to a bigger role that I am destined to play and this course helped be realize that purpose.

(J. CAMPBELL 4) THE ORDEAL:  Near the middle of the story, the hero enters a central space in the Special World and confronts death or faces his or her greatest fear.  Out of the moment of death comes a new life. 

I went on with my ways until I was already working. One day, I found out my boyfriend of four years was cheating on me with my best friend. To make things worse, they managed to justify their inconceivable act of betrayal by turning everyone against me. All I had then were my friends so when this happened, I was left with nothing. Suddenly I was alone. Those whom I considered as my family were all gone.

At the same time all these things were happening, I was also having problems with my career and a worsening relationship with my family. Having been told so many times in the past that I wouldn't amount to anything, I grabbed the first job I was offered regardless of the task on hand, the career path, and the pay because I so badly wanted to show off and prove those people who judged me once that I can succeed. I was unhappy, but I had to stick up to it because I could not afford to show people how miserable I was. However, the more I was trying to swim in the miserable career situation I was in all the more I felt I was being sucked deep into the ground. I was imploding and it was resonating with my personal relationships, with my performance at work, and worst with myself.

Regis Cebu Leadership Final Integrative Paper – by Leader Juvelon Abante

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Hi Glym,

Please check the email below for my FIP submission. It was sent at 01/17/2016 09:47 PM.

Kindly assist in submitting to Prof Jorge. I am using my office email so I could immediately send it to you.

Kindly advise for other concerns.

Thanks,
Juvelon Abante



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Date:        01/17/2016 09:47 PM
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Received 1/18/2016

Dear Prof Jorge,


It was a privilege to be in your class and learn different style of leadership that I could apply in my own leadership Journey. I thank you for that and indeed it was a memorable learning experience. This Leadership will be added to the Best Days Of My Life.

Below is my FIP. Keep In Touch Prof.

Thanks Again,
Leader Juvelon Abante

Regis Cebu Leadership Final Integrative Paper – by Leader Juvelon Abante

 
 
Introduction:
 
I was asked during the first day of the leadership class on what kind of leader I want to be. I answered I want to be a transformational leader just like Steve Jobs. This is my immediate answer because I have read so many articles about Steve Jobs and I told myself that I want to follow his leadership style. But these made me change my perspective on leadership for the past 8 weeks that  I am taking this class. I realize that I should stop being Steve Jobs and be just Myself.  I should focus on my strengths and work on my weaknesses just as Self awareness is the first key to discovering my journey to servant leadership. The Four Key Leadership Principle for this subject is about self awareness, ingenuity, heroism and love. These are the most essential traits that every leader should possessed and to be taught on the next generation of servant leaders.

 
I.             Where Am I Now?
 
My submitted papers and class activities have help me to answer the question by reflecting on my life's journey to where I am now.

1.    Enneagram
Shown below is the summary of my enneagram result showing the most and least points I got on the different personality type.

Type	Score	Reflection
1 – Orderliness	Type 1 – 1pts	This is where I got a lowest point because a lot of times I don't focus on the instructions but rather on how people will execute. I am not the type of person to strictly implement instructions but hear other's opinion before execution.
2 – Helpfulness	Type 2 – 7pts	This is my highest score among all types because this holds true that I am "The Helper".  Most of the time I value others feelings and based my act on decisions not only according to myself.
3 – Image Focus	Type 3 – 5pts	Because I am a people person, there is a tendency that I always think of others perspective on me. I always try to focus on being a people with Integrity so that people would not lose trust on me as I lead them.

 
Learning Reflection:  The results just confirms on how I know well my personality.  Being the helper really reflects my attitude towards other people. Self awareness plays a vital role here to know my strengths. I will work on my lowest point and improve them so that I could use that as my learning points as I work on my weaknesses.

Regis Cebu Leadership – Leader Oliver Solijon – Final Integrative Paper

Regis Cebu Leadership – Leader Oliver Solijon – Final Integrative Paper

It can be said that leadership is the skill set for an individual to have an influence on a group of people, making this group work with enthusiasm in achieving common goals. It is defined as the ability to, manage, promote, take initiative, hold, motivate, encourage, and evaluate a group or team. In business management leadership is the exercise of executive activity in a project effectively and efficiently, whether personal or institutional management (within the organization's administrative process).

For the last eight weeks of the course, a lot of self-awareness was made. During the first session we were asked to define what leadership is. I volunteered and define it as a person who has strong willed to influence other people. For the record I was the first student who participated in the leadership class. Apart from that professor solicited ideas from other students in defining leadership.

The question on whether leaders are born, made or situational has been the topic of the debate during the first session. The group that defended the view that leaders are made, won the debate. I am so glad that I was part of that group. Although we won, in my own opinion leaders are a combination of the three- born, made and situational. The percentage for each may vary in every individual. Some may have strong innate leadership qualities and little amount of experience while others may have little inborn qualities while others are made because of their significant experiences.

According to Chris Lowney, author of the book Heroic Leadership, John Kotter has given the most concise definition of leadership.  Thus, he defines Leadership as establishing direction by developing a vision and strategies that will bring about changes needed to achieve that vision. It also means aligning people by imparting direction in words and deeds to all whose cooperation may be needed so as to influence the creation of teams and coalitions that will support the vision and strategies that will have to be carried out.

St. Ignatius style of teaching about leadership is that it is different from contemporary as well as the conventional style of leadership. St. Ignatius teaching about leadership differs in four ways; a) everbody is a leader and we are leading all the time, well or poor, b) leadership is from within and it is all about who I am as much as what I do, c) leadership is not an act, it is a way of living and d) leadership is an ongoing and continuous process.

The first group work of which the class was divided into four was about being a bad boss. The group has to plan a crime reflecting a bad leader. In our group we presented the corrupt practices in the government wherein red tape is rampantly done. The group work presentation that we had is slowly showing the kind of leadership we have.

The learning agreement which was one of the first assignments provides an introduction of myself and analysis of my strength and weaknesses. It also lay out my five year plan, objectives in taking the course and my desired grade for the course. Basically the learning agreement was the start of my self-awareness wherein we were encouraged to disclose some things in my life.

In the book Heroic Leadership, C. Lowney also cited the Jesuits' enduring leadership secrets which are the four core pillars or principles namely: self awareness- understanding one's strengths, weaknesses, values and worldview; ingenuity- the ability to adapt and innovate amidst a changing world; love- engaging others with a positive and loving attitude, unleashing their full potential; and lastly heroism- energizing oneself and others with heroic ambition and a passion for excellence.

The four core pillars of the Jesuits, I believe are the reasons behind their enduring success and longevity as an organization. These same principles are still applicable in the modern times.

Regis Cebu Leadership - Leader Leonard Castañeda –Final Integrative Paper

Prof.,

Once again, let me thank you for the whole learning experience. Mabuhay kayo! Magis!  <well done, well thought of and researched.   Mana sa Nanay.  Tunay na scholar.  Saludo ako sa iyo.  Keep this up>

FINAL INTEGRATIVE PAPER

I.                    WHERE AM I NOW?

There are many ways to answer this, but all require a long, hard look at yourself, and as many people will attest, self-assessment can be difficult, and at times, painful. I just turned 41, meaning that based on the average lifespan of the Filipino male, adjusted for sedentary living and vices, more than half of my life is over. Going through several reflection papers, and collecting pictures for the AVP has made me realize and recall lot of things: decisions that were made, for good and for ill, memories that brought joy and pain, and past experiences that have shaped us, whether with our conscious effort and desire, or with influences that have led us without us being conscious about it. When I recall what my childhood dreams and ambitions were, I cannot help but shake my head with regret over how far from the mark my life has become. The truism that "failing to plan is planning to fail" is like an accusing refrain that plays in my mind even as I write these. To answer where I am, I will begin by taking into account who I am first.

From the enneagram

The enneagram test revealed that I had a 3x4 personality, that is, a combination between an achiever (type 3) and a designer/individualist (type 4).

Type 3's are described as  people who: "need to be validated in order to feel worthy; they pursue success and want to be admired. They are frequently hard working, competitive and are highly focused in the pursuit of their goals."

Indeed, many instances in my past have shown that when motivated enough, I manifest a competitive streak that pushes me to excel: this is most often shown in tests or competitions. But why is it then, that despite this drive, I have not driven myself hard enough to gain the success that I once craved for? Why have I not achieved they typical hallmarks of a successful person?

A big part of this has to do with the second component of my personality, and as I mentioned in my previous paper, "emotionally complex and highly sensitive. They long to be understood and appreciated for their authentic selves, but easily feel misunderstood and unappreciated... they  are often somewhat moody or temperamental.³"

The negative side of my type 4 personality probably caused me to lose both achievements by not being able to focus on sustaining success. I can be moody and erratic, and probably, my insecurities about being an illegitimate child, about being poor, and the glaring contrast between my lack and the relative abundance of my half-sisters, contributed much to this. There seems to be a constant tug of war between the two, and much to my regret, I realize that I could have sought to be understood and appreciated by others based on my accomplishments.

The alternate test showed a different result: this time, I was categorized as a probable challenger (type 8). Type 8's are described as: "essentially unwilling to be controlled, either by  others or by their circumstances; they fully intend to be masters of their fate. Eights are  strong willed, decisive, practical, tough minded and energetic. They also tend to be domineering; their unwillingness to be controlled by others frequently manifests in the need to control others instead."

Bringing them all together, I observed that the following phrase could sort of sum up how I saw myself: "I know what I am doing (type 3), and I need you to understand this (type 4). So now, knowing that, you can either follow my lead, or leave me alone (type 8)."

Cebu Regis Leader Ivy Ko Final Integrative Paper

Dear Prof,

Attached is my FIP. Thank you for the push - for me to put this 'procrastinated dream" into fruition. <That is a good term for Lecturers -  "pushers of wisdom".   Leaders are pushers to action.  Hahaha>

Thank you for the wisdom.

Best Regards

Ivy

WHERE I AM NOW

My life story, how I evolved into who and where I am today is highlighted piece by piece in the papers I have submitted. 

1. Genogram 

Edward Yap Uy and Irene Chua Tan was introduced to met and married in in their early 30's. Edward is a Cebuano while Irene hails from Binondo, Manila. They are blessed with 4 daughters, and I am the second child. Both of our parent's ancestors are from China, thus our family is 100% Chinese. We speak the Fukien language at home and we follow typical customs and traditions like respecting elders, grandparents living with their son's family when they get married, offering food and praying to our ancestors during their death and birth anniversaries.  Respecting for elders was a value my parents give a very high importance upon. 

Growing up, focus was doing well in school. I don't remember much discussions on what do we want to do, what our dreams and aspirations are, what we want to achieve in life. Having romantic relationships before graduation is frowned upon, talking about emotions is not a normal thing. Love is felt more thru actions rather than words. 

My role is usually the events organizer and conscience to my sisters not based in Cebu on their responsibilities to my parents.  My dad is the ultimate decision maker, while my mom is most of the times assumes the follower role. My family, especially Mama would always tell me what are the things and habits I need to improve on. My dad would always ask me how I am, what are my concerns and what am I doing with them.  Just like my Ama, I am self-sufficient and a go getter. From my dad, I got his people and networking skills. Mama is very prayerful and religious, I developed my spiritual habits from her. 

Diabetes and Heart condition exists in my dad's family (with papa being a triple by-pass survivor) and colon cancer in my mom's side. Knowing these genetics, I have to be very conscious of my health. I keep a healthy lifestyle, exercise at least three times a week, Eat healthy, keep myself fit all the time and undergo annual medical check-ups. 

Learnings: (Self-awareness)

The people who know you best are also the best persons to tell you areas you need to improve on constructively. Having a family that is informs me my weak points is definitely a big help in my self-awareness process.

Cebu Leadership Final Integration paper by Leader Kerwin Mark L. Gubantes, MD

Dear Prof. Jorge

Good day To you! Pls allow me to thank you for the privelege of being part of your class in Leadership. It has been truly a pleasant albeit challenging experience for all of us. My self awareness has definitely improved and I will continue to work towards my goal and passion. Take care always and see you in the ROAD. Attached herewith is my Final Integration Paper for your perusal.

Cheers!

Kerk, MD




CEBU Regis LEADERSHIP
FINAL INTEGRATION PAPER
Leader Kerwin Mark L. Gubantes, MD.

I. INTRODUCTION

What kind of a leader do I want to be? That is the question that was poised to us at the first day of our class. that is the same question that I wish to answer when the time is right. It was definitely an eye opener for me as I went through the difficult process of knowing myself - my strengths and weaknesses, my family profile, my enneagram , as well as my passion and the external and internal factors that affects me.
Self-awareness as was espoused by Chris Lowney in his book, stressed the importance of this important pillar along with Ingenuity, Heroism and Love in the development of a Great Leader from within ourselves. Our Emotional Intelligence is very much dependent in our ability to control our emotions and be able to have the motivation to move ourselves forward. To be able to lead others, we must be able to lead ourselves first.
Some of the notable answers that were given by my co-leaders on the question of leadership are the following; that leaders should be a catalyst for change; of being able to inspire people; of being able to motivate others and innovate. These concepts are very much being promulgated in the song "Pananagutan". It is a very beautiful song in my opinion primarily because it espoused accountability and servant leadership. Moreover , it encourages us to lead our people to the right path. These are concepts that are hard to come by these day and age. It is but fitting for us to discover leaders who have the audacity of showing us the right path like Pope Francis and who is willing to fight for truth and justice in our society. Leaders who are willing to sacrifice self-interest for the common greater good.

II. Where I am Now?

My Enneagram has revealed that I am a Loyalist and a reformer as well. Loyalist individuals have been defined as people who are committed and security-oriented. I can recall in the early years of my life in Elementary school, I was always encouraged by my parents especially my mother to focus on the goal at hand and that is to do good in school. She always tells me that a good education is the key out of our hardships cognizant of the fact that I was born to humble beginnings. That commitment carried me through the high school years and even though I was not the most technically gifted student in class, I was able to be a consistent honour student and graduated as the class Salutatorian. My early success in the Academic side of life has given me a good opportunity to seek higher education in a reputable school like the University of Santo Tomas . This is one of my defining moments. During those years, the EDSA Revolution was still very fresh in our memories and Probinsyanos like me relish the thought of the opportunity to learn and study in a good University like UST. Rich in history and tradition, I felt privileged to be part of. My days at the University has taken me through a memorable time with the Red Cross youth organization whereby we were organising activities geared towards helping people in need especially those who have been affected by natural calamities like Volcanic eruptions, floods and typhoons. My experience with community organising under the banner of LOTUS which is an acronym for the Legion of Organised Thomasian United for Service had also given me a new perspective in shaping my passion of helping others. We were sent through different parts of Luzon in response to Calamities which have affected our countrymen , brothers and sisters and friends. Relief work for me was both a challenge as well as a rewarding experience. It opened the deeper recesses of my senses to the realities of life and the dangers of the world that we live in.. It has taught me to be compassionate especially for people who has less in life.
As a Reformer, I am a Rational and a Principled person. I could relate this character of mine in 2007 when I came home to Dumaguete to start my young career in Head and Neck Surgery. As a junior consultant staff, I was very eager to prove myself worthy of respect from my peers. I was interested in participating in meetings and conferences geared towards improvement of one's craft however , the early experiences at that times not very pleasant and not according to my plans. I was literally disillusioned by the system being implemented by the Senior staff. I would like to think that they are just protecting there careers and earnings such that they refuse to concede patients under our specialty. It was a painful reality that I needed to deal with. This is the real world now - I told myself, not very ideal. I started to question myself if I made the right decision to come home and practice. Eight years later and now I realize that some things are not worth fighting and we would rather be productive citizens in some other ways. Looking at the many patients that I have helped and served, it was worth my while. It has all the more increased my resolve to be proactive and be a force of change. A change for the better. A change that will give equal opportunities for improving your craft and earning your keep. But most importantly, the change that I would like to achieve is a system whereby we could provide a standard Medical and Surgical care at significantly reduced costs to patients and clients.
In my Genogram, I mentioned that I had the privilege to witness firsthand the difficult life from my Father's side in Siquijor and the relative comfort living in my Mother's side in Dumaguete city. I saw the effects of the authoritarian style of my maternal grandfather and how it folded the lives of my Uncles with contrasting effects. Respect was paramount in the family and that I uphold to this day with my own family. Core values within the family like living with Integrity and honesty are important lessons which I intend to keep for as long as I can for these are the values which will keep me grounded and and carry me forward. My mother was a very important person in this regard. She has showed us to be resilient in the face of adversity and trials. She carried us through sheer grit and determination with the little earnings she had. On story was told of her having to pawn her own wedding ring just to provide for our needs. I just felt admiration and gratitude for her selfless love and devotion. It was God's grace that saw us through the trials and problems we faced then and now. I believe that who are we now and what we have achieved is reflective on how we lived our lives when we were young. I was always cognisant of the fact that if we waste precious resources and opportunities, our lives will be in misery. Leaders who do not learn from past mistakes will fall prey in committing the same mistakes in the present and the future. Growing up witnessing two different aspects of life has made me the grounded and humble person I am today. These experiences have arguably been invaluable in my dealings with our profession, our Medical Society and in our community.

III. Where I am going?

Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta once said to Dr. Devi Prassad Shetty, a Cardiovascular surgeon in India, ' The Hands that serve are more sacred than the Lips that Pray". Dr. Shetty founded the Narayan Hospital Health system whereby he developed a MicroHealth Insurance system asking farmers in his community to contribute a measly 5 rupees/ month to avail of standard Medical and Surgical services in his hospital whenever they need one. This system has been very successful in his locality up to this day such that many big cities in India and other countries are trying to follow his model. Using the Principle of Economies of scale whereby they cater to a large group of patients at the same time to significantly reduce the costs of health care. For example an Open Heart surgery which would costs around 60 thousand USD in the US , will only cost around 1,800 USD in his facility given the same standard of care. Cataract surgeries could performed for only 5USD as well as Dialysis sessions for only 10USD. Can we follow this model here in our society, my answer will be an emphatic YES! We just need to have the commitment and passion to achieve the goal. I would like to quote what he said, ' If you want to change the way things are, you have to keep walking. You have to make progress and in some things you will succeed and some things you will fail; But for as long as your intention is to help mankind, and convince that I will succeed, but in the process a lot of things that we never anticipate may happen, something good, something bad, we have to keep walking because that is the only way we can reach our destination" , end of quote. Judging from his words, I can perceive that he is a very humble and simple person with a very compassionate heart for the poor and the needy. In there hospital, they have claimed to have never turned away Paediatric patients who seek there expertise in Heart surgery even though these patients could not afford to pay for the services rendered. I would like someday to Emulate what Dr. Shetty is doing for his countrymen in India and replicate it in our community. It has been done so it is not impossible. He has shown us that he is a good example of a Great Leader, a game-changer as they call him who is aware of his self, his strengths and weaknesses and is very smart in exploiting the opportunities that he faced. He was not afraid to fail because he knew how to get up everytime he fell. He kept on walking until he reached his destination. You can readily see his passion in his work and in his desire to help those who needed him and his expertise. I am far from being Dr. Shetty and what he has done and achieved for himself and his people. But I share the passion of helping others with him and for me that is a start. Being in the Medical Profession just like him gives me the platform I needed to serve others. My experiences in the Red Cross youth organizing Missions to my Volunteer work in an NGO performing Surgical Missions for free is walking towards the destination. <we resonate on this Doctor;  let us keep in touch and pursue same ideals>I have a long way to go but I am not afraid to take the journey. I remember how St. Ignatius Loyola embarked on a 2000 mile journey o the Holy Land only to be deported 2 weeks after and went back to Europe to discover his Self and his purpose in Life. I remember Benedetto de Goes who persevered and pressed on with his journey through three mile high mountains passes despite bitter cold and fear of not finding the mysterious Cathay. Each one of us has our own journey to fulfill and just like St . Ignatius who was able to influence and motivate 9 other people to come with him in his journey to create the Society of Jesus and fulfil there goal, I intend to influence other interested people to align with my goal of creating a system of health care for the poor. According to Chris Lowney, Leadership is not merely getting the job done; it is how the job is done', for all leaders this means influencing, visioning, persevering, energizing, innovating and teaching.

IV. How do I get there?

My strategic Plan is divided into three components.

A. Personal
Maintaining a Healthy Lifestyle and good health is paramount towards achieving the goal. Poor Health is a big obstacle because it lessens our capacity to work properly and be able to effectively help others. Eating the right food and maintain my exercise regimen like biking at least twice a week and swimming in the sea at least once a week will be helpful and fun. On the Academic side, my learnings and experiences in the MBA program of AGSB will be very crucial for me in creating the process and system of the Health care model which will substantially reduce the Health care costs just like what Dr. Shetty did in Narayana Hospital . Even though I am just in my second subject right now after ManDyn, I have significantly increased my level of Understanding in the dynamics of the business and the intricacies as well as the self awareness in my strengths and weaknesses as well as my purpose in Life.. Improving my Emotional Intelligence will be important especially in dealing with different difficult circumstances and people in the Industry that I am involved with. As Daniel Coleman pointed out in his book on Emotional Intelligence, ' A Good Leader should know his strengths and weaknesses, values and goals, should know how to control disruptive emotions, be motivated , show empathy and be able to manage relationships'. Above all these things is my strong Faith in HIM who created me, for without Him, I am nothing. All of these Endeavour and handwork will be for nothing if I don't include Him in my Plans - Ad Majorem dei Gloriam.

B. Family
As shown in my AVP, I have always drawn my strength from my nuclear family. My parents who had impressed upon me the value of a good education and handwork. Leadership is about defining moments and my experiences growing up in a very supportive family structure has been one of my defining moments. They gave me the opportunity to reach my goals early in life and who I am today is largely because of the Love and support that they unselfishly gave me. So as I continue to pursue my purpose and my passion in life, I will always go back to my family for moral and emotional support. I am thankful to my co-leaders Bryan and Genevieve who facilitated the Team Building process. It was an emotional and amazing experience for me to learn how my wife and children appreciated what I am doing and there show of support through the letter I received was a very powerful example of how Love can be an important force for good and change. My supportive wife made me realize the strengths and weaknesses I have and I will do my best to improve upon them. One of the Leadership lessons I learned from the great Mahatma Gandhi is " You must be the change you wish to see in the world".

C. Work
I feel privileged to be given the opportunity to work as a physician and a Surgeon at the same time. My Profession is a good platform for me to serve others and the community as a whole. It is a tough task to follow the footsteps of Dr. Devi Shetty and what he continues to do at the Narayana Hospital in India , but I will try even if I am the only one- I hope not. I Have found my Purpose in Life and I will work hard for it. I remember what the late Steve Jobs said during a commencement exercise in Stanford, espoused Love and Passion for your work. He is a firm believer that when you Love what you are doing and you are passionate about it, then it is not very difficult to excel and achieve excellence. His Work ethic is a good example of Achievement Culture. You will often hear statements like ' Love your work' and Don't waste your time" in his speeches. Up to this day Apple company which he founded has remained at the top of Fortune 500. I will continue to remain committed to my passion of helping others through my work day in and day out as I walk towards my destination. I may stumble but for sure I will get up and move towards the goal. It may take 10 or 15 years from now, I don't mind, for sure I will put my Heart and Soul into it. Are you with me?


GOD Bless us ALL!