Final Integrative Paper by Rae Stephanie O. Go
This course has been one of the most, if not the most, challenging and stressful subjects I have taken. I thought that I was the only one who felt that way. But, during the last session, I realized that most of the class felt the same way. But then, I also realized that it is not solely because of the number of requirements, but because we have to really reflect deep within and share that to everyone so as to be able to comply with the requirements.
Both of my parents are shy. Although my father is dominant and can be very aggressive when he wants to, but he does not like being put into spot light. My mother is friendly, but she shies away from social gatherings. So, add both of their shyness, then that is my shyness level. Although I am friendly and approachable, it takes a lot for me to be the first one to initiate the friendship or conversation. I am uncomfortable with big groups. I can be talkative only when I am with my closest friends or family. I grew up always filtering whatever I would say, even to my close friends. I am more of a listener and a confidante. So, it takes a lot from me to share my thoughts or ideas. But, this course has challenged me to be more open in sharing my thoughts, to reflect on how every aspect of my life connects to each other, to act on how I can minimize my shyness to be more effective leader and a better person, to be more accepting of changes, and to appreciate more of what is happening around me through the stories and passions of my co-Leaders. I got stressed with most of the requirements, but I have learned a lot from this course.
