Hi prof submitting my revised enneagram hope got it right this time…thanks
CEBU REGIS Leadership Revised Enneagram & LIFELINE Genevieve Ramos
ENNEAGRAM & LIFELINE
The top three result of my enneagram test are the following; I am more like 5 the Investigator, 2 as a helper, & 4 as an individualist. Combine these three, I can see the picture of myself.
What is my new learning when taking an Enneagram test?
It was last year when I was introduced with the strengths finder test, I was so excited and was happy then since I was in search and longing for the answer of my prayers, searching of who I am really inside and what will I do for the rest of my life. Yeah, it did help me to know more of my strengths so I can focus on it, become great and see what lies ahead of me. Lo and behold, as I took the enneagram test, it amplified my understanding of who I am and my character backed up with my core strengths. It now gives me more clear understanding and description of what my strengths and weaknesses are, that I can relate and connect to my past experience both negative and positive. At first, I reacted on the results of my enneagram test, most especially on the details of my weaknesses. While it is difficult to take, I realized that when truth hurts, change starts. I could not accept that what was describe of me on my enneagram are very relevant that surely relates to my being a person both from the past and at present. For instance, I have struggled for many years on how to improve my relationship with my eldest daughter, I couldn't influence her and worst is, I always feel that she hated me as much as I couldn't understand her. She is on her teen-aged now and I am worried because I feel that she needs someone to talk to with her challenges in school and I couldn't get through her feelings. However, after my enneagram test, things have improved and clarified. It now made me realize that because of my being emotionally distant, and less intimate person describe in my type 5, I never developed a bond with her in her developing years before teenager, which I regretted and felt bad. Certainly, I believed that there is purpose in each of life's situation, and for this, knowing my weakness now would make me adopt change fast and be able to find ways to catch up with her and fill the gap moving forward.
Another learning I had, with my enneagram result is that, I have understood myself better than before. Sometimes in our lives, we reached to a point that we have to pause, reflect and examine ourselves where we are, our path, our work and the significance of the life we wanted to pursue. I begun to ask myself; is this the work I want for the rest of my life, am I giving back the resources that God showered me or Am I consuming it all? Further, I asked myself, what do I really want to pursue, what God really wants for me, what I really love doing, just as what Steve Jobs mentioned in his speech during the 2005 Stanford commencement exercise. He said about the need to pursue your passion, in order to achieve greatness and has to align yourself with passion like doing what you love to do and if not continue pursuing what you love to do, don't settle for less until you find the spot. This is exactly where I was before this course; I was caught in between of pursuing my passion and continue doing the things I have been doing before. I was in a dilemma of choosing which way to pursue, but with both the strengths finder and the enneagram tests, and the many activities on reflections and in-sightings on this course, it now made me see my path clearly. A great impact and contribution towards understanding my personal struggles and be decisive to take actions and most of all learn to act with confidence in an uncertain situations. With enneagram, it confirmed my strengths with which I can start building on; I know that it will not be that easy along the way but knowing my strengths and weaknesses now and with the help of my God I am confident that in the end I will triumph.
What is the relationship to what I already know?
Understanding deeply my enneagram results and reflecting on my life story and my defining moments I realized that somehow it has connections. During my childhood and my years in school being creative, innovative and inventive are already manifesting in me, I remembered how my math teacher was so amazed when I showed a different style and approach in answering the problem and still got the right answer, such is innovation and creativity. I also remembered one time that I won in the art contest when during my elementary years and I got to represent my school and eventually to the entire region to compete. These little achievements are some of the strengths I attributed from my number 5 type of a leader.
I also recognized and realized that the success that I had during my early years in working also attributes to my strengths. Being a 5 type of leader, which generally defines as focused, observant, curious, insightful, expert are the key ingredients of how I achieved my accolades at an early years of my life. I started focusing on upgrading myself in terms of knowledge and expertise. I bombarded myself with trainings and education to better serve my clients. Being highly innovative helps me more to have stood out among my competitors. This experience I recall is very much true to the result of my enneagram.
Being a type 2 Leader, a helper at that, led me to naturally develop relationships with my clients and colleagues. As a matter of principle, I have set up a mechanism to ensure that the interest of the client must come first, to serve them at best. I realized that being selfless and passionate are two great characters that I have developed. To help is my interest; it gave me an opportunity to do more business beyond my circle of influence like referrals. Being a helper also able me to connect the values that I have to do insurance selling. It is not about just selling the product, but it's the love and care that you show to the family such as planning to any eventualities that may happen along the way making sure that the family will always be economically protected, no matter what happens. My # 2 traits are very much aligned with those that I need in order for me to execute well my plan and strategy in dealing with my clients and my team.
Enneagram makes me connect my life and understand better - In pursuing opportunities and also on understanding the past such as the challenges I went through. Foremost, this exercise allows me to connect the story of the strengths I have and weaknesses of which made me feel grounded and connected to my purpose in life. Looking back of the difficult challenges I faced then with my husband, it made us sharpened our saw and allowed us to explore many new things. As a result, I now can connect why I don't settle for anything less, why I value excellence, why I don't rest and always keep up to meet new challenges, and with my husband, we love to do things that make us uncomfortable, something that will optimize our skills. I remembered that my favorite line, which I copied from my husband, "always go out of your comfort zone." These are also some of the strengths that I ascribed as being number 5, which my husband and me both shared the same.
Another realization as I reflect In this activity and I was able to understand now why I am like this, is that its been my struggle ever since, that its so hard for me to let go of the past experiences, I tend to hold on and nurse the wounds that I have been through, being negative is what my husband always tells me that I need to change. Now I clearly understand and accept this weakness of mine so that I may able to deal with it and improve.
What I have done, am doing and will be doing for this topic?
With real life reflections and realization, I certainly got strengthened and connected my life stories as never before. The moments of triumphs, successes and challenges will always be my source in harnessing my faith and eventually achieve a purpose driven success.
Being aware of myself in general, I will not be afraid anymore to pursue unchartered territory, fail if needed to gain sustainable significance to people I love, and stop and reflect to realign, reconfigure and reassess to better all the time. I will pursue the right choices along the path to where God leads me.
Going back to school and determined to finish what I started is the first step I was able to boldly decide, despite the demanding schedule of my four kids and my job. I will continue to seek for wisdom to be able to continue my journey towards my success.
Lastly, I have been so grateful with this experience of learning my passion, strength and understanding my weaknesses through the enneagram and I was astounded of how I was able to discover the connection by reflecting it through my past experiences, I will be forever thankful to this experience, and to pay it forward, I wish and I will share this to the people I know those who have been experiencing the same experience that I do, those who are lost and still pursuing yet their passion and purpose in life.
Because it proves that you don't need much to change the entire world for the better. You can start with the most ordinary ingredients. You can start with the world you've got."
― Catherine Ryan Hyde
― Catherine Ryan Hyde
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